Wednesday, January 26, 2011

a list!

My first list of my new blog!  I love lists.  If you didn't read my old blog, you don't know that.  But since I only have 5 8(!!) followers right now, I think you all know me well enough to know that I love me a list.  This list, in the spirit of all things New-Year's-Resolution is about things I wish to accomplish....sometime in the relatively near future.  I'm not really sure what I mean by "relatively near future," so we'll see.

Please note that they're listed in no particular order.  With to-do lists of more menial tasks, I generally prefer to list them in order of importance.  But here, it's too hard to tell.  What's most important today, might be least important tomorrow.

1.  Be brave.  I really want to try things that push me to my limits and then some.  I tend to wimp out a lot.  I think I'm a bit of a perfectionist and often don't like to do things if I don't know how good I'll be at them.  This fear is magnified when I know other people will be watching me potentially fail at something.  Ugh. I hate it.  But my biggest goal (I think this is #1 on the list for a reason) is to really work on not caring a) what other people think and b) whether or not I am good at something, as long as I am enjoying doing it.  NOW, the problem here is that I generally don't enjoy doing things I'm not very good at.  Especially if everyone else is better than me.  So I need to give new things a few tries.

I think one of the bravest things I ever did was drop everything on the East Coast and move to Colorado.  And I wouldn't trade that decision for the world.  Sometimes I reflect on my move out here and think to myself, "I did it!"  I thought this especially often my first year here, when everything was still shiny and new.  But even now, I will still look around me in awe at the grandeur of the mountains and feel proud of myself for making this happen. Just imagine what other amazing things could be in store for me if I could just be a bit more brave.

2. Get better at knitting.  Knitting is randomly something that I'm not very good at (yet!), but am very motivated to learn.

3.  Get better at photography.  Same deal as knitting.  Plus, I can't let my brand new camera go to waste.

4.  Take a step back. I tend to get stressed really easily.  I don't know why.  I need to work on being able to take a step back and evaluate what's really important in a situation.

5.  Maybe take a sign language class this spring?  I really want to do this.  Ever since the 5th grade, I have had this weird, stalker-ish obsession with sign language.  I've never done anything official about it, but have picked up on random signs here and there along the way and stored them in some weird file in my brain.  (My favorite sign is for "freeze pop.")

What's holding me back?  Well, I have to figure out (tomorrow) whether or not I qualify for in-state tuition.  If I don't, I refuse to pay $253/credit hour at the local community college when in-state is only $47/credit hour.  I'm sorry, but is that inflation ridiculous or not?  If I can't get in-state, then I'll have to continue my stalker-ish ways until another sign language opportunity presents itself.

Update:  They wouldn't give me in-state tuition.  They accused me of "trying to get cheaper tuition"....well, duh?  Who wouldn't try to get the cheapest tuition possible?  Sigh.

6.  Cook at least one challenging recipe a month.  I feel like I've fallen into a bit of a cooking rut and what better way to get out of it than to learn new recipes and challenge myself in the kitchen?

Could be tricky in this kitchen.  I bet all of my friends in NYC are getting ready to yell at me for this comment.
7.  Put the laundry away right away!  Sigh.  I hate wrinkled clothes.  And, in general, I'm too lazy to iron.  So, I need to put away my laundry immediately after it comes out of the drier. Dryer? How do you spell that?

8.  One thing I always want to do (speaking of drier/dryer) is improve my vocabulary.  The other day on the bus, a friend and I were talking about how we'd gotten a little worked up when talking about a past friend who is not a very good person (to say the least).  I was saying we were "aggressively angry" and he said, "incensed, if you will."  Yup.  Aggressively angry vs. incensed.  In my defense, he went to Yale.

A wordle of my old blog, The Good House.

9.  Save more money.  Living in Colorado has really taught me a lot about what's important to me in life.  And while I do like nice things and buying clothes, there are many things I like more.  For example, hiking, cooking, skiing, and traveling.  I also realize that I took a "serious" pay cut in moving out here.  So, I want to a) not buy such frivolous things as often and b) realize that I am probably behind on my savings (does $50 count?) and need to start catching up on that. For serious things, like retiring some day and buying a house.

10. Smile more.  Two and a half years ago, it was brought to my attention that I tend to look really upset/bored when, in fact, I'm enjoying myself.  I was on a trip to Spain through my old employer with two other employees and a group of high school students from Iowa.  The whole group took a day trip to Morocco, where a photographer took pictures of us all day long.  It felt like the paparazzi, but was really some touristy gimmick.

Image from said tour in Morocco taken on my crappy old camera.
Anyway, at the end of the day, the photographer passed the newly developed pictures around the bus.  Obviously, he hoped that he could sucker us into buying documentation of our cultural experiences.  But for me, and one of my colleagues, this experience was eye-opening in a different way: we realized that we looked REALLY angry about being there.  And, why should we look that way?  We were on a FREE trip to Spain and Morocco, after all.  And, I really did enjoy seeing the sights and soaking up a culture and CONTINENT I'd never been exposed to before.  And yet, I looked angry.  Ugh, what's up with that?

SMILING (kinda) about my inability to keep fondue in my mouth/to get it there in the first place.
Ever since then, when I see myself caught unaware in a photo, I check how happy/sad I look.  Unfortunately, I often look more sad than happy.  I don't want to portray this anymore!  To those of you reading this, please, please, excuse me for always looking like a jerk!  I hope to work on this, but if I can't make myself subconsciously look happier, then know in the future not to take offense.  I'm probably enjoying myself!

1 comment:

  1. You go, girl. I want to do all of these things too!!